June 30, 2008

Retreat Notes 4: Hearing

Peaceful morning. I try to pray and I sit and nothing happens. Should I be upset? Is God to be subject to my command to appear and disappear on cue?

In the parlor some of the priests on retreat sit and chat about the standard concerns of the clergy: gutters, roofs, money.

I read Merton's Day of a Stranger, which I find in an anthology in the tired retreat house library. Nine stunning pages that I don't think get read often, perhaps because they are late, obscure, and confrontational in their ambiguity:

"The spiritual life is something people worry about when they are so busy with something else they think they ought to be spiritual."

"I an age where there is much talk about 'being yourself' I reserve the right to forget about being myself, since in any case there is very little chance of my being anybody else."

"Who was that hermitage I saw you with last night?"

1 comment:

4narnia said...

i'm really enjoying all of your posts on your retreat! this is a nice one on "hearing." i think it's ok that nothing happens sometimes when we sit in prayer. this happens to me, too. but, the important thing is to never give up on prayer time. i think God is ok with us just sitting in His presence. i think if we expected something to happen every time we are in prayer, we might be be disappointed and give up. i think that God just wants us to be faithful to Him and really make Him a part of our life - if we do this, we will have PEACE.
tara