The Holy Spirit has provided me with a very suitable spiritual director as well as others to help me along in other ways. I pray with the brothers, and when I miss the prayers I say them on my own. I probably miss my periods of meditation--'mental prayer' as our Capuchin tradition calls it--more than I should, but the devil knows that this is the heart of everything for me so it's the first thing he goes after.
I sign up to take a turn from time to time saying a week of weekday Masses at the General Curia of the Capuchin Sisters of Mother Rubatto and the occasional Sunday Mass at the Bethlemite Sisters. These moments I appreciate very much.
I do my little job, Secretary for English, making translations and handling correspondence with the English-using Capuchin world, which is a lot of places. I do a little bit of work for the website, pasting in translations of articles after they appear in the base language, Italian, and I curate the Twitter account that tweets such news as it appears. According to some ancient agreement made by one of my predecessors, from time to time I visit the Office of Papal Charities at the Vatican to request apostolic blessing parchments for the Province of Central Canada.
Yes, there are people and places and aspects of life in the home Province that I miss, and I regret being so far from my family. But there are graces here too, and discerning my obedience I believe that they are the graces that God wills for me to gather and to be at this moment in my journey.
Of course one never knows, but barring anything serious and unforeseen, I will probably be here until at least the General Chapter of 2018. At that time we will have a new General Minister, and on him and his language needs and how he wants to organize the General Secretariat will depend a lot of what happens next.
Of course I trust the Holy Spirit in this, who has always led me and been with me, guiding me to graces and places and people, sometimes through spaces that were spiritually lush and sometimes through the desert, but making each place an opportunity for blessing all the same.
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I also notice that this old blog has passed ten years of posts. Wow. That's the larger part of my religious life with the Capuchins, and a significant part of my life as a Christian. Of course the blog has slowed down a good deal since I have taken up a quieter life here in Rome, and sometimes I wonder if its time has come and gone such that I might close it up. But I don't know. I still enjoy writing it when I do, and I still think its purposes in my mind are valid: to have a means of self-expression that I enjoy, a place where I can preach the salvation we have in Jesus Christ, and perhaps to provide an opportunity for someone to see what it's like to be a religious, especially for someone discerning this sort of vocation. Maybe I'm not the most normal or fitting person for the last task, but I trust the Holy Spirit to use what I write--should it be of any use--for his purposes.
Though I stopped adding to it when I left the parish and was no longer preaching on Sundays in a regular way, I leave my separate homily blog, Praise and Bless, up and published. It still gets a few visits from search traffic. My little attempt at blogging with my meager Italian, Motivi Religiosi, gets a new post now and again, but hasn't taken off at all. There are almost no visitors. But I enjoy it and appreciate the practice so I keep at it. As far as this blog goes, I think I'm in the mood for a new header picture. St. Lawrence of Brindisi in the sunset at our International College has been great, but maybe it's time for something new.